delicious creme filled pain

 These photos were taken at the clinic I visit once a year to get my prescription meds renewed. It's usually a long boring wait so I needed something to help me pass the time. 

 I've been taking a mild anti-depressant for about 7 years now and I can't live without it.

You wanna know what I was like before I started taking the meds?

Have you ever bathed a cat? 

Close enough.

 Completely unrelated to this particular doctor's visits, I had to go the emergency room Friday night.

As I was cooking dinner I was struck with hard, sharp menstrual like cramps that brought me to my knees, churned my stomach and took my breath away.

 The pain started from the bottom of my ribs, below and all the way under to my tailbone. I couldn't sit. I couldn't lay down all I could do is walk doubled over and then I eventually just fell to the floor.

Now I've had some seriously painful menstrual cramps before but never anything like this. In fact I would go so far as to say my labor pains weren't even this bad.

I'm not one to rush to the ER every time something feels a little wrong but I was terrified.

I was sure a cyst had ruptured and I thought I was going to die.

The ER visit just turned out to be a very expensive pregnancy test and quick pelvic exam (which was excruciating). The doctor was rude, dry and sarcastic and was in too big a hurry to even tell me what he thought the issue was. 

 The cramps went away but I'm still pretty concerned about that little episode - pain like that doesn't happen for no reason.

Diet update: The Paleo-esque diet it working. I've lost 10 lbs so far! YAY! This week has NOT been a good diet week though. Why? Well if you're an American then you can look at the photo below and know exactly what the problem is here.

For those of you who were unaware, the Hostess CupCake Co. went bankrupt last year, thus putting a tragic end to America's favorite snack cake: the Twinkie. Well, we fat ass Americans just couldn't handle this and somehow Hostess was able to bring the Twinkie back. I'm not sure what kind of strings they pulled to make this happen, but it happened and that's all that matters to me.

It has been a sweet reunion for me seeing as how I never even got to have a farewell Twinkie before they left the shelves. Actually, this was the first time I've had a Twinkie in about five years.

my first New Year's resolutions like, ever....

 I've never made New Year's resolutions before so welcome to my first list of some things that would be nice to do this year.

Stretch my ears to 1/2" 

(two sizes up from 0ga)

Eh, I think that's as far as I'll go aaaaand I'll finally be able to wear pretty plugs like this!

Be more adventurous in the kitchen

Every year my cooking gets better and bolder but I'm ready to kick things up a notch and stop being so afraid of recipes that require ingredients I've never heard of.

Get a henna inspired tattoo

mmm... I'm not sue if you can get a tattoo while breastfeeding. I'll have to look into that.

Go to sleep before sunrise
My sleeping schedule is awful! It's been that way for over a year now and it's only gotten worse since I got pregnant. I go to sleep between 6am-7am and get up anywhere from 1pm-5pm.
Something's got to change!!

Grow my hair out

I love having my hair short but now that it's grown out a few inches since being pregnant, it's making me realize how much easier it is to manage.

Try some color

I think we can all agree that the outfit on the left is pretty amazing- but would I wear it? Probably not. Just the thought of wearing something so colorful kind of sends me into a panic. I've neeeeeever been a fan of wearing bright colors- I'm a dark and muted tones kinda gal (like on the right).

But I would like to try my hand at wearing something just absolutely color drenched at least once.

Shake the baby weight- plus some

When I got married two years ago I got lazy and happy and gained a whopping 40 pounds. Yeah, it happens. As soon as I started to diet and exercise I got pregnant... 

Hello 40 MORE pounds.

I'm not a weight obsessed kinda gal but an 80 pound weight gain in two years is a little much.

I'm due in just a couple of weeks so that'll be a nice 15 pound head start.

Buy a juicer

Juicing is a very, very good thing to do and I think me and my husband would benefit from it immensely.

We've been looking for a juicer for a few months now but we're having a little difficulty finding one that is affordable and reliable.
I can't wait to get my hands on one so that when I get super old I'll still be healthy... and sexy.

Paint my nails more
(or stop buying nail polish)
I'm a compulsive nail polish buyer but I rarely paint my nails. I don't know why. It's time to either stop wasting money or put that stuff to use.


Tap and shimmy
I love to dance and my two favorite forms of dance are tap and belly dance. Strange combo I know.
Last year I got lazy, started making excuses, then I got pregnant and tired and just stopped dancing.
But you know what? Since I love to tap and belly dance so much, maybe the next step is to put them both together and try flamenco???
With the baby?


Make my Faire bigger and better

Last year's faire was pretty darn good for a first try. But this October I'm going to try harder to get more food vendors and merchants. We had plenty last year, but a lot had to drop out at the last minute which left some serious open gaps on the map.
The 2013 Faire WILL be spectacular.


Buy a new gown (or two or three)
I love my gown but I can't see myself wearing it again this year.
My dress really took a beating last year and I'm ready to give it a rest.
I want something more eye catching and regal like the gown pictured below but gowns like this can get pretty darn costly... so I guess it's time to start saving now.

So what are your resolutions? Feel free to share a link to your "New Year's Resolutions" blog posts below!

hellooooooo emergency room!!

So um... :sigh: yeah. Ok, so here's what happened. I got a nice boost of nesting energy and decided to continue our project of converting the storage room into the baby's room. So, I was placing books on a shelf and then :SHWACK!: Caught myself in the eye with the spine of a comic book.

After much groaning and laughing (at myself for being so careless) I went to the bathroom to give the ol' peeper and examination. It felt like something was stuck in there...heh, yeah, a piece of my eyeball skin. Looking in the mirror could clearly see that there was a chunk of clear eyeball skin stuff missing. Oh boy.

Now I'm not the kind of person to just skip off to the ER whenever something goes wrong. Something better be broken or needs to be sewn back on before I'll go. Well, I think a piece of your eyeball gone is a good reason to go.

Now, I've been in worse pain for sure, but the level of irritation was darn near unbearable. The right side of my face began to swell up from the stress and I developed a major nauseating headache. I could barely open the good eye because it wussed out on me and decided to sympathize with the other eyeball- I think it went on strike. So I spent the rest of the evening blinded and horribly disoriented from being able to just catch glimpses here and there of what was going on around me.

The eye is more swollen but I can keep it open AND use my other eye!! 

PRAISE THE LAWD! I CAN SEE! 

My vision in that eye is pretty blurred but the irritation has gone down by about 60%.

I had to unplug my laptop to make the brightness of the screen go down, but heck, I'm just so excited that I can get up and move around and not just sit in the dark listening to the TV.

What am I going to do now?

I'm going to finish putting the books on the shelf in the baby's room.

Wish me luck.