Well let me just get straight to the point.
I stepped down as director of my own faire yesterday.
Yeah. I was ready to pull the plug on the whole operation two years ago but I decided to wait a year to make sure that was what I really
wanted needed to do.
I'm giving the faire to a man who has been by my side since the very beginning. He loves faires, he loves the faire perhaps more than I do. He's much older than me and has a better head for business.
There are several reasons why I'm backing out. Many of the reasons are negative... but I didn't tell my crew that. I don't think they need to know that either. I've announced that it was due to lack of time thanks to my two toddlers and my other blog - which is very true but...
I don't want to do this faire for the rest of my life. I'm not a rennie. I'm just a chick who likes to dress up and throw big parties but a faire can't be treated like that. There's so much more to it. Courts and traditions and all sorts of hoopla I'm just not too crazy about.
All of my plans I had for my future got pushed to the side to make way for the faire. I struggled to try to make the faire fit in WITH my plans but in the end it would just gobble up everything I envisioned. I can't continue rearranging my future for something I'm not "that in to".
I've planned this faire through two pregnancies and two c-sections. I went back to work the day AFTER I came home from the hospital last year because I only had four weeks to finish preparing for the faire. I requested my baby be born early so I could have more time to heal after my c-section. I was up on my feet running an effing renaissance faire four weeks after a c-section.
Very few people understand what it takes to make this faire happen.
They think I just wake up and snap my fingers and it all falls into place.
If it's not good enough for them, then they think I didn't try hard enough.
If something goes wrong, then they think I didn't prepare well enough.
If attendance is low, I didn't advertise enough.
If there aren't enough vendors, it's because I'm an incompetent event planner.
I'm tired. I'm worn out. I don't just need a break. I need to move on.
Texarkana needs this faire so I will train the crew on the basics as much as I can, wish them luck and bid them farewell.
I started this faire with barely even an idea of what a faire was, $200 and a notebook of ideas.
I made something from nothing and I want to get away from it so badly I don't even mind if I never even get credit for starting it.
I might continue as Daniella Noir the Gypsy Queen though. I love performing and I love my gypsies. I will always support the faire and I pray that it does well. I'm not angry, I'm not bitter - I'm just doing what's best for me and my family... and my sanity.