Sleep has been pretty terrible for me lately but last night really sucked. I think my poor sleeping last night came from over-working myself to get the kitchen cleaned and organized. We still have packed boxes here and there from our move in June and I'm tried of looking at them. I was in the mood to clean. My husband removed his camping gear from the hall closet and installed some shelving so we can have more storage space. After an hour of what one could easily call "light work" AND with plenty of help from my husband, my back and groin felt like I had just completed a fifty mile hike. The discomfort only got worse when I went to bed. As soon as I would find a fairly decent sleeping position, I would doze for maybe an hour then I'd have have to get up to pee. Getting out of bed is painful and getting settled back into bed is painful. Now I've decided to start getting painful gas during the night that just builds up and wont pass unless I get up! What a snappy vicious cycle!
I'm trying to be very careful with my words (having been taught all my life that it's possible to speak bad things into existence- I don't want to go into labor early) but I'm ready to have this baby. I'm ready to feel like myself again. I like to clean and move fast and stay busy but being pregnant has slowed me down sooooo much. Now I just spend all of my time sitting on the couch surfing the internet.
|Jabba the Hut understands me.|
Honestly, I'm starting to feel a little hopeless and I'm afraid that after I have the baby, my recovery time is going to take too long and my house is going fall apart and I'm going to get super obese and that I'll never be my high-energy take-on-the-world self again.
Surely I'm not the only woman here that feels this way? What was your experience during and after pregnancy?